[ABAX Character Aplication]

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player information.

name: Cali
are you over 18?: Yes :|
personal lj: caliborn
email/msn/aim/plurk/etc: Plurk: Metro Myth, AIM: Calipso09
characters in abax: Nobody yet :D


in character information.

series: Nikita
name: "Alex" (Alexandra Udinov- although her full name is a spoiler)
sex: F
age: Roughly 20
height: 5'4"
weight: 118
canon point: Right before the season one finale, BEFORE she finds out Nikita has been lying to her :|.
previous cr: None!

history: Here and here!

personality: Alex was and still is, in many ways, a teenager. She acts young and impulsively, prone to acting out against her elders and stubbornly insisting on going her own way, even when those older and wiser advise her in a different direction. She is insecure about herself and hides this with false bravado, often pledging herself to things she is not ready for.

When the series starts, Alex has already gone through a lot and has been somewhat robbed of her childhood. She grew up in Russia, but her family was killed and her home destroyed when she was at a young age. She was sold to a sex-slave trading ring at a young age, and though she managed to escape, she got caught up in a very wrong crowd of addictive drugs and violence, which lead to her developing an overly-tough persona and emotional shields a mile high. She never really got to grow up as a normal teenager, this has somewhat stunted her growth and causes her to act out immaturely when she is in tense situations. She is growing up very fast and learning to control herself, but is still prone to bouts of impetuousness occasionally. In some aspects, she can be very mature-- having been forced to grow up very quickly in order to take care of herself-- but when she is dealing with other people and faced with her own issues, she withdraws into herself and pushes people away roughly, acting out instead of dealing with things.

She was rescued from an abusive drug-peddling boyfriend by Nikita, who put her through a forced detox, helping Alex get clean and rid the drugs from her system. At first, Alex was entirely antagonistic to Nikita. Her horrible past and own personal issues makes it very hard for her to trust people; distrust and distance is much easier to manage. She tends to not make many friends, preferring to keep to herself and deal with everything on her own.

The only way Nikita got through to her was to offer Alex a chance at revenge on those people who had killed her family. It broke through the tough wall Alex had built around herself, enough to draw her out of thoughts of suicidal depression and make her decide that it was worth the effort to keep living. Eventually, she and Nikita grew very close, and as of right now it is the only truly open relationship Alex has with anyone. Her interactions with Nikita show the girl that she might truly be inside; she is open, more honest, and often jokes around with Nikita, often smiling and laughing with a more carefree demeanor than she shows with anyone else. When she feels safe, she seems to enjoy joking around, teasing the people she cares about and never taking things too seriously.

When she does not feel safe, the walls come up. When she first becomes a new recruit in Division, everything is unknown and uncertain, and she treats all the other recruits as potential threats. She does not try to reach out and does not try to make friends. She is instantly antagonistic with another girl, named Jaden, who tries to pressure her into a fight the first day they meet in the cafeteria. Alex feels that she has to prove how tough and untouchable she is, and so she stays aloof and distant during most of her time in Division training, often turning to violence when pushed to it. She is not above getting in physical fights with Jaden if need be, and in fact she often resorts to physical assault instead of running away.

She does not like being thrust into new and unknown situations. When she gets her new apartment, she tries to pretend to enjoy a normal life, and accepts an invite to a party across the hall. The party is loud, filled with bodies, dark and threatening to Alex, who is instantly tense and agitated upon entering. A guy tries to hit on her, and instead of reacting normally, Alex flips out and attacks the person, putting him on the ground in two moves. This shows how she does not do very well in new social situations, and places with two many people or two many bodies often put her on edge. She prefers to be alone, if possible, or with only one of two people nearby. As previously stated, she has a hard time coming to trust people in general, and when she is in a crowd she feels surrounded and threatened.

Alex is a good actress when the time calls for it, having a natural talent for deception that has been honed and trained well by Nikita and Division. When Nikita first finds and detoxes her, Alex manages to convince Nikita that she is fine enough for Nikita to leave her alone. When Nikita returns, she discovers Alex had attempted to commit suicide by overdose. Nikita herself is brilliant and perceptive, but even she was fooled into thinking that, at the very least, Alex was not suicidal. Later, Alex manages to trick the leaders of Division, people training in detecting lies and inaccuracies, about her own past. Alex can put on a facade as easily as others put on a mask, and although there are certain triggers that can break through that facade, they are few and far between. And when the situation is absolutely vital, Alex has been shown to overcome her own issues and panic and still lie with the best of them. For example, Amanda, the psychologist and head torturer for Division, has her suspicions that Alex is hiding something about her past. Despite multiple attempts to trick Alex into giving away the truth-- locking her in a straight jacket when she discovered Alex has claustrophobia; drugging her with a truth-inducing pain killer when Alex is in the hospital, and pretending to be a friend and confidant when Alex needs someone to talk to-- Alex has never given Amanda what she wanted, always holding to a desperate lie even if only by the edges of her fingernails. Amanda is capable of giving her true Hell, and still Alex is strong enough to pull through.

Alex is reliable and a good person to have at your back when you need her. Despite her issues, she is very clever, often working against impossible odds to pull off the secret missions Nikita gives her. At one point, she deliberately breaks her hand in order to be admitted into the doctor's office, where she manages to sneak out an antitoxin that Nikita required to save her life. In another, when thinks go horribly wrong and Nikita is captured by Division, Alex manages to sneak around and steal a key to the arms room, where she steals enough C-4 to blow a hold in the ceiling above where Nikita is being held. All of this she does of her own violation and planning, without regards to her own personal safety beyond surviving long enough to get the job done. For Nikita, who saved her life and gave her purpose, and for her only true friend, Alex would do anything.

Including shooting the man she had come to care for deeply.

In a very dramatic and life-changing moment, Alex is faced by Thom, another recruit whom she had grown close to despite her efforts not to. He has discovered she is a really a mole and has betrayed Division, and he holds her at gunpoint in the middle of Nikita's daring escape. Alex is forced to shoot him to save herself and Nikita.

Until that point, Alex had never taken another human life. Despite being trained as an assassin by Division and despite being involved with Nikita, she had managed to avoid that darkness, that action she could never take back. It nearly breaks her. She collapses into tears, and even with Nikita's urging, Alex refuses to leave the body. Nikita is forced to abandon her in order to save herself, and Alex, at that point, does not care. She had never cried on screen before and the scene is particularly jarring. Until that moment, she had still been young, still a cocky pretender with all the confidence of a teenager who thinks she's invincible. After that moment, Alex grows up.

She gets, if it were possible, even harder. She does not smile in front of the division leaders; she takes all her missions calmly and without complaint. It takes awhile before she warms up enough to even joke around with Nikita again. It becomes even harder for her to act normal in public-- this is shortly before the disastrous party scene where she attacks the man that hits on her.

Her only refuge besides Nikita, from that point on, seems to be Nathan, her neighbor. She strikes up a relationship with him in a desperate attempt to have something good and normal, and perhaps falls into bed with him too quickly because of that need. She does not tell him anything about herself, and does not trust him with her secrets, but she seems more than happy to use him for an escape she can get nowhere else. With him, she laughs and jokes and pretends to be a normal twenty-year old, but the truth is her interactions with him never seem as smooth and natural as they do with Nikita. With him, it is still an act, albeit one she does particularly well and believable. But she wants so badly for it to be real and true that she starts to fool herself, not listening when Nikita warns her of the dangers of having a lasting relationship while still being a Division Agent. Inevitably, it ends badly when she tries to tell him the truth about herself, and he ends up leaving her, thinking her a liar. As a result, Alex gives up on the attempt at normalcy and ends up fully embracing the only thing she has left: her work as an agent, and Nikita's promise to help her eventually get revenge on the people who killed her family.

abilities/powers: Trained as a government spy/assassin. No super human abilities. Good at planning an strategy; some tech and hacking skills; well practiced at hand-to-hand. Also familiar with sniper rifles, handguns, and a variety of bombs and bomb materials :| She knows how to kill people good.

ALSO trained with espionage skills; acting, makeup, making herself into someone else. EXTREMELY good at lying. It's arguably her best skill.

first person sample: [This was one of the freakiest situations she'd ever been in, and she'd been in... quite a few strange places.

The video feed switches on, showing the darkness and chill of the morgue behind her. There's an abandoned table where she used to be lying, still sticking out from the wall.

She's trying not to freak out. Actually, she's doing a rather good job of it, despite the minute way the camera seems to be shaking.] This is Alex. [She's just hoping to God this feed reaches the right ears. She pans the camera slowly around the room, trying her best to keep it steady.] I ... woke up here. Seems to be a hospital morgue. I don't... [The panoramic view shakes, steadies again.] There's no one else here. No one else alive, at least. I don't...

...If there's a way to lock onto this signal, do it. I'll keep the line open.

third person sample: Does fighting zombies work?

case no: No preference!